♥ Vivian

Delicious, Jalan Ampang

2010-09-09T14:50:00.009+08:00

Went to Delicious,KL with my babes.

long time never hang out with them.

I love them so much and I love the food there ;D

Pictures will do the talking :)

♥

Drank HoeGaarden White with Rainee.

This shit is good :D ♥

Chit chat chot chut and the food appears..

Wild Mushroom Soup

Mama Meatballs Spaghetti.

Green Chicken Curry with Rice.

Carbonara!

Chocolicious Sundaee ♥

Carbonara♥ Freaking nice!

You see, my friend here Mezors

looks so cute in the phone!

looks like some kinda cartoon :D

Enjoying this sundaeeee with this bitch ♥

Group picture without Crystal.

Had a great night with you all!

Love the talks & laughter in the car.

We're all so grown up,

we can drive on our own,

but our friendship can never end.

Alright?

Love you guys !

♥♥

p/s : Celebrating Raya with them at Mezors's house! ♥

p/s2 : I miss my boy :( Quai dian hui lai :D

27/08/10

2010-08-27T22:57:00.004+08:00

A day out with baby boy today :)

Went Leisure Mall, we watched

The Adventure Of The King

Hmm, not so nice.

I saw someone sleeping and she did not wake up until errrr,

I don't know when. LOL

Lunched at WongKok, yumcha at OldTown.

and went home.

Had a night session with my babes.

Chaotaufoo & Pasar Malam kakis

♥

Handsome! and cuteeee ;D

bii I'm jealous of you okay!

You're so freaking thin already :(

& thanks for the Adidas t-shirt baby :)♥

Yeah, my favourite pose.

♥♥♥

10months

2010-08-24T20:41:00.003+08:00

happy 10th months baby boy.

I love you deeper & deeper :)

Love last forever

♥♥♥

Mcd's GCB

2010-08-16T17:37:00.006+08:00

Bibi asked me out to taste MCD's GCB.

ngom ngom. MCD time :D

we took alot of pictures,

but I wont upload all. haha

He put on lipstick for me.

"HOT lipsitck" XD

and I started camwhore.

Love using his phone to take pics.

Clear + nice :D

sometimes not good,

because they are too clear.

ahaha.

My cute bi ate 3gcbs. no lah, 2 only.

baby ordered another gcb, 2sundaes and 1pineapple sundae.

Pineapple sunday icecream.

Angelina Jolie ?

We kept playing with food,
and bi put icecream on my feet.
eeeeeeeeee.

after eating, i dah jadi gemuk.
and MYGOD. too much baby hair :(
and we wore PINK.
awww :)

All About Baby :)

2010-08-16T13:30:00.008+08:00

I've ignored my blog for so long.

sorry bloggie x(

i've tons of post to write about. i'll do it slowly :D

okay, a post about my babyboy's bday♥

celebrated with him @ pavilion and spend a whole full day with him

took him to Ichiban Boshi

the pink

and the pinky. we wore our pink shirts :D

his

and mine. looks kinda yucky

watched La Comedie with him.

hmmm,the show's not too bad.

Didnt really snap alot of pictures for that day.

Anyway, happy birthday to my baby boy!

wish you happy and healthy always.

I love you alot ♥♥♥

____________________________________________________

Next event, watch baby played AND1 @ TS

Good game :D

he plays good and i'm proud of him ♥

after that, went to hunt for food.

had dinner @ Bangkok Jam near Starhill.

Can you see my muscles?bhahahaa

no makeup for the day,

my face looks kinda pale.

hmmm.

This is awesome. Iced Tea

My baby is too exhausted + hungry.

love his teeth :D

We ordered some sorta mini tomyam steamboat.

the kuah is superb.thumbs up :)
after dinner, daddy came and pick us up.

he send baby home again. weeeeeees

He's too exhausted. awwwwwww ♥

I Love You Biiiiiiii. ♥

Enjoyed the times being with you. :)

9th

2010-07-24T22:14:00.003+08:00

Happy 9th month baby♥

Tomorrow

2010-07-09T21:26:00.002+08:00

National Cheerleading Competition 2010.
after months and weeks of hardcore training,
let's do our best and so em what we've got !
LETS GO PIRATES!

260610

2010-06-26T23:28:00.004+08:00

Its Saturday again, a day to rest & relax.

but, not for me.

As usual, went for cheer training today.

9am - 5pm. what a tiring day!

and I hurt my leg again today.

The wound has just recovered and I fell down during practice

and it tored into half ! it kept bleeding and

*keep bleeding keep keep bleeding blood

keep bleeding keep keep bleeding blood*

leona lewis's song rocks.HAHA

For the first time, I cried like an asshole.

Seriously its damn damn damn pain.

How am I gonna cheer ?

FML real hard!

after training, went movie with bii at leisure mall.

To Low Hui Xin,

i'm sorry that I said no the other day,

it was a last minute plan! hehehehe.

Watched Toy Story 3

The movie was good !

9/10 :D

I ♥ Peas-In-A-Pod!
Their so freaking cute man!
awwwwwww

It doesnt matter whether I'm fat,

I just love my shirt ok. ROCKS :D

After the show ended, went back home.
Dad send him home today.

Thanks Dad! ♥

He's so shy. AHAHAHAHA cutenya ;D

The keychain he bought. Thanks♥

Super blur. stupid phone

Picture of the day.

I love you Bi♥

p/s : Cheer comp is in 14days! arghhh!

8th ♥

2010-06-24T19:21:00.005+08:00

Dearest one,

Happy 8th monthsary ♥

weeeeeeeeeee (:

let us 888 together. HAHAHA

thanks for loving & caring me throughout our journey.

Love you every single bit! ♥

Muaah muaaah :D

I love to pinch you. :D ♥

Bi, did you know that love stands for

LoveOfVivianEugene

♥♥

Cnbmcbbabikia

2010-06-21T17:45:00.004+08:00

Woke up early today,

I had lots of confidence for the day.

but,

I went through hell !

FML real hard

real hard!

I thought God will let me pass today,

but I failed *unefficiently*

my driving passed . . .

tetapi ,

buzzzzzzzzzzz

Thanks to myself for hitting the fucking pole during parking.

I was enough nervous, and

I was shocked when that bloody jpj lady shouted at me

for not placing my wheel straight.

:( :(

wtf is your problem man ?

at least my car is straight right ?

you don't have to shout and give that bloody look and your face!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

hello come on ? how can you shout at people when their taking their driving test?!?
I was quite confident that I will get through this shit thingy,

but I had to resit again and waste cash !

God my oh, I think I had black clouds following me today ?

and,

I hope I'd pass my fucking parking the next round

my driving sudah cunned ;)

apa boleh buat ? boleh salahkan diri saya sahaja.

( dan jpj bodoh itu )

babitul.

p/s : Thanks bibi for comforting me,
I know you would spank that lady if you were there ;)

Driving Test

2010-06-20T23:42:00.002+08:00

Not going to school on the first day of school :D

but,

I am having my driving test tomorrow.

I am so so so so so nervous man !

My heart beats faster and faster!

Woooooooooooooooooooo~

God, please let me pass with flying colours. haha

Amen!

A Day Out w the Boyf

2010-06-20T00:28:00.006+08:00

Its a saturday yo !!

The last week of holidays

awwwwwwwwwww:(

Went out with the boyf at noon :D

Went sing k & movie today

While purchasing movie tickets, we stopped by at Shimono

a japanese dessert stall that sells crepes

its beside pavilion nike, go and have a try.

Not bad ;)

Did not makeup that day.

I'm too lazy and dont really fancy make up for now :)

Natural's the best :D

eventhough I'm ugly.

yeah, and i'm so tanned.

OMG

heheheheehee

So chio ;D

Outfit of the day,
top - nicole
shorts - padini
belt - sg. wang
slippers - bali
simple and normal.
nothing special. :D
love my hair ♥

promoting National Geography ?

Check out his hair,

ROCKERR DEYHH!

watched Karate Kid with the love one,

tapao Subway for dinner and ate in the cinema.

We took couple sit, so comfortable :D

But there was a fucking retarted couple sitting infront of us,

the guy scolded my bi for kicking his bloody chair.

and he did not even touch his chair.

I kicked their chair after the movie ended,

padan muka mereka.

pigass la them, brainless!

the movie's great !

rate : 8/10

He could do a perfect center split!

FML i hate him' !

and he is so damn cute. awwwww

Movie ended around 10pm ++

Mommy was so kind today,

she send my bii back. weeeee :)

Picture of the day ;

Poor him, forced by me. haha. I love my cheek! (:

Cheermaniac

2010-06-13T22:18:00.003+08:00

Hey people i'm back from nowhere !
Nowadays I am super busy + lazy to update my blog.
I've tons of things to update but i'll do it one day. teehee
Anyways, its the 2nd week of school holidays ♥
The first week was quite a blast.
Gotto spend time with the boyfiee & babes♥

OHAMGEE,
Nationals are coming soon! about a month to go.
@_____@

That was last year's score.

Mmmm, I am sure I dontwanto

get to the bottom of the bottomless ths year ;S

Cheer practices are on everyday except Sunday.

Need to get those bums up!

Muscles tone!

Body tone!

Leg tone!

Everything to be nicely toned and strong :)

I've toned myself more than last time;D

ME LIKEY :) :)

Unfortunately, see that thing around my leg? hell yeah I was hurt!

It was like this,

and it became like this

Horrible kan ? yeah :( I can hardly do anything!

Please mr.leggie, be alright will ya? :

Momma

2010-05-09T20:36:00.001+08:00

Happy Mother's Day Mummy.
I love you so much :)

6 Months

2010-04-24T22:31:00.006+08:00

You're the best thing I never knew I needed :)

Mocha

2010-04-23T23:27:00.003+08:00

Babe Miko's new puppy, MOCHA

awwwwwwwww so tinyweenimini

and cute !

Spec girl =D

When Im Bored

2010-04-21T16:02:00.002+08:00

Yeah, I split with my kurung skirt + pj pants.

weird kan ? :D

YPT performance is coming next tuesday !

OMG ,,,,,, I need to buck up my f***king toetouch !

p/s : Go on and talk about me, I dont even care. =)

FML

2010-04-13T21:22:00.002+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK U WANT FROM US ?
MTFKER!

I JUST WANNA HAVE A NORMAL PEACEFUL LIFE

ESPECIALLY WITH HIM, AND WHAT U WANT?

FUCK MAN

IM REALLY FUCKING PISSED.

WHY PARENTS ARE SO FUCKED UP ?

YEAH IM SO FUCKED UP I WILL SAY FUCK ALL THE WAY

I WANNA FUCKING DIE NOW MAN

PLEASE USE A GUN AND SHOOT ME

OR JUST FUCKING END MY LIFE.

SUCKS TO THE MAX.

TIRED OF ALL THESE FUCKING PROBLEMS

ENOUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !

END MY LIFE PLEASE GOD

I DUNWANA LIVE ANYMORE.

FML

FTW

FMFL

OMG

2010-04-10T22:22:00.003+08:00

OMG long time never update my blog !

OMGWTFBBQ i got sunburned today during cheer practice !

gosh my ouh, check out my skin colour T_______T

had Korean Bbq for dinner @ Ampang.

didnt really snap pictures, was busy eating

I was so hungry because cheer today really burned up 90%

of my calories. wahhahaha but i gained back after eating

OMG he's beside me ;D

Undang test =D

2010-03-28T21:38:00.002+08:00

OMG YEAH !

I PASSED MY UNDANG TEST !

CANT WAIT TO DRIVE =D

YEAHHHHHHHHHHH!

Five monthsary ♥

2010-03-24T21:02:00.007+08:00

Happy 5monthsary Biii !

I hearts you damn muchieeeee.

Lets stay long ok =)

Mwahsssssssssssssssssssssss.

aaputtchiak :D only you know the meaning.

XOXO ♥

One love :)

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two." -St. Augustine

BREAKTIME

2010-03-23T16:22:00.002+08:00

My blog is full of dead flies.

OMIGOSHHHHHHHHHHH.

Yeah, long time didnt update blog aint I ?

3weeks exam for diagnostic,

wont update so often until unless SPM 's officially over !

damn, I have alot of things to blog about,

but I'm getting lazy and busy. HOHO

sorry =D

♥ Belated birthday gift,

love you bii. thanks ♥

You've made me proud again bi ♥

p/s : Gosh, I cant stand this kinda people.

I dont want to say. and dont fucking ask me.

Just gets pissed of while mentioning

himS and herS = them

haha

LOLS

signing OFF,

with love,

VIVIAN♥

17th

2010-03-02T22:37:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME MYSELF & I.

Off Ze Calories

2010-02-26T23:02:00.004+08:00

biii took after cheer practice.

OMGOSH, freaking exhausted today X_X

From 11.30am till 6.00pm. 6 & 1/2 freaking hours,

with an empty stomach =(

plus I need my beauty sleep !

But its great, get to shed tons of calories off the body =)

need to reach my target, long way to go more.

but I'm starting to have nice abs =D yeays ♥

gotta work it out till its perfect.

wanted to eat chao tau fu cause today

there was pasarmalam,

but i said NO.

how sad =(

dont wanna waste my effort burning of calories,

pfft.

Hope tomorrow I can enjoy with my babes who're going:)

my early sweet 17th.

p/s : Bii ur abs getting nicer. GAYAO :D ♥

4th monthsary

2010-02-24T20:55:00.002+08:00

Happy fourmonthsary bibi !

ILY XOXO ♥

four months passed, we still stand strong aite ?

lovessssssssssssss ♥

awwww, hee's wearing mine sweater, how cute :)

ISH

2010-02-23T21:06:00.000+08:00

aku beh tahan,her

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

LG Lollipop 2

2010-02-22T19:03:00.001+08:00

I WANT THIS ! ! ! !

19.02.10 ♥

2010-02-22T18:39:00.002+08:00

L ♥ V E

Thanks for ur surprise =)

Happy belated valentines bibi ♥
everything means alot for us,
thanks for everything &
hope we stand strong =)
we have an unending story to write,
right ? :)

******************************************************************

YUMM. ♥

by, the best babe chef =)

she cooks even if I'm hungry at 1am.

hehe.

Gosh Oh My ♥

2010-02-16T22:26:00.005+08:00

Thanks Daddy ♥

Uncle & aunty came down from USA to celebrate CNY.

its my first time meeting them.

and they got me some stuffs.

from left : zara blouse, abercrombie fitch tank tops,

a blue GAP skirt, & a banana republic top.

gosh , freaking love em' !

and and and

a LV's purse. ♥
hell yeah

smile bigggggggggggggggggg =D

errrr ok , this one cny day2

so random.

and even BINGO has new clothes too !

I ♥ MOMMY , spells it:D

Valentines & CNY

2010-02-14T23:53:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentines Day. BIBI ILY ♥

You see, this year's cny aint that good for me.

no pictures on day one & so on.

hopefully after thursday cny would be something fun !

there is where all the fun begins =D

Insane

2010-02-13T13:21:00.003+08:00

i'll update my blog after cny,

nowadays im getting busy with lotsa stuffs !

ok , now this is what you get

when u have a great but strict & fierce coach for cheerleading.

pain is the way to success ! hahahaha. @_@

Gosh , my elbows are fucking ugly for CNY !

p/s : Hope to celebrate Valentines with the loved one,

dont wanna be lonely anymore.

Blink Blink

2010-02-07T21:58:00.003+08:00

lovely day with bibi ♥

yeah , they competed in the Harian Metro competition yesterday,

congrats, they won 2nd =)

Crystal & I.

the wind was sooooooooo strong @_@

Badrie, the serious driver.

Blinked my phone ♥

New bag again !
lovesssssssssssssss ♥

Birthday Girls

2010-02-03T21:13:00.003+08:00

Two pretty girl's birthday is today !

030210

Miss Low Hui Xin.

Happy bday bitch !

dah kawan lama, thanks for everything

& all the best in SPM

and i love ya. mwaaahs !
XOXO ♥

Miss Cheong Phing Zhen.

classmates for 5 freaking years !

Yeah babeyh, thanks for everything.

All the best in SPM ! =D

ILYT ♥

Gosh I love this pic ! I fcuking want back this me =(

01 Feb

2010-02-02T19:53:00.003+08:00

Its February people !

so fast passed one month !

CNY is around the corner,

so lets get going and be crazy enjoying ! =D

Cant wait till CNY,

lotsa angpaos and games and fun and food coming ahead !

YEAYYYYYYYYYYYYY ♥

btw,

Happy 100th days bibi ! ♥

300110

2010-01-31T21:04:00.004+08:00

CNY's around the corner !
And end up I bought nothing !

MUST GO 2ND ROUND !

RAWRRRRRRRRR.

But , had a great day with the bibi.

went out after cheer training.

today's training killed my body.

now i am suffering !

but wait till coach comes,

it will be even worse.

but throughout today,

there were tears and screams in pain,

but unity was formed.

the team is getting tougher & tougher.

we must win something this year !

He spend on me almost everything.

We watched FAME, a musical sort of movie.

talented people, but no story line.

Thanks bii for today. You're really sweet :)

Had a superb day with you

Thanks for everything.

ILY banyak banyak =D

p/s : bii, sorry I burped garlic always. haha.

Eff The What ?

2010-01-28T22:01:00.003+08:00

and I dont know.
Hate those people who think they are capable to handle everything,
especially ur close ones.
I quoted it in my FB status too today.

LMAO
Just dont like those shitty attitudes,
I just cant really stand it.
Sick and tired of it.

RAWRRRRRRRRRR.

Go get a life !

babipundek betul.

sorry, i dont mean to mention pig ass here.

hehehe =)

Tiger Rawr.

2010-01-27T21:43:00.009+08:00

Nice picture of a tiger. but guess,

what is it made from ?

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see this !

What an amazing body art ! Whatcha say ? :)

IDK, IDC.

2010-01-25T18:39:00.005+08:00

wtf ! why is my life so black ?

for example TODAY.
I got cheated rm15 today for reload.
rm15 gone without getting any reload !
why is my life
sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo black ?!
why does it sucks ?
i hate it much !
why am I wrapped with a black cloth ?
where is the white one, the pure one ?
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?
everything is against me,
everything !
just one thing,
I WISH I COULD SAY goodbye to earth.

1 + 2 = 3

2010-01-24T21:07:00.005+08:00

Happy 3monthsary bibi.

Thanks for the ferrero rocher.its so cute haha.
its been a hard time through,
but no matter what we stay happy ok.
ILY ♥

If I have to choose between loving you, and breathing,

I would use my last breath to say

I LOVE YOU. ♥

200th

2010-01-21T21:18:00.001+08:00

LMAO.

i've finally completed 200 posts =D

i'm kinda busy nowadays,

plus i had tons of problems going on.

how can i find a way to distress?

haihhhhhhh.

so my blog is kinda empty.

but hope you guys continue wait for my updates.

heeeeeeeeee.

*thanks to people that support me always ! bii too. dai sek (:

Intervensi Day 3

2010-01-20T21:32:00.006+08:00

ITS OVER !

gosh, today's paper killed my mood.

hope i could just pass them ?

add maths , physics , chemis , maths ,

and all.

finally. felt so relieved.

and i only have to mood to really study after CNY,

so hmmmm..sorry parents, you guys have to bare with it.

and i've nothing to say,

too lazy to type it out.

close people know my problems.

thanks to them who gives me strength & encouragement.

another thing,i'm kinda upset, maybe God doesn't want me to be in the team.

hmmm, concentrate on SPM then !

=) adios.

Intervensi Day 2

2010-01-19T20:47:00.003+08:00

I'M SO GONNA BE LIKE HER,SOON.

Intervensi Day 1

2010-01-18T21:47:00.000+08:00

Cheer Tryout

2010-01-17T20:42:00.005+08:00

After attending church today,

i went for this EMAS tryout.

its,

EXTREME MALAYSIA ALL STARS

Malaysia's all star cheerleading team.

I was so nervous for today,

hopefully they will recruit me as a new team member,

so that I can gain more experience in my cheerleading life.

its so fun !

I could feel the cheer-ism after a year not competing in cheer competition.

This year alots of competitions are coming up ahead,

so I must buck up !

TOMORROW is MONDAY,

intervensi test starts !

Gosh thank God its only 3 bloody days.

I hate exams,

someone save me ?

LOL.

all the best to us ! who are form5s =)

Thank you bibiku ♥ ilymwaahs.

F for friends

2010-01-15T22:59:00.004+08:00

They are always here

to laugh with you,

act stupid with you , joke with you,

cry with you, talk rubbish with you,

disturb prefects with you, walk with you,

and so much more to list down the road.

CONCLUSION : THEY ARE YOUR TRUE FRIENDS:)

and to my beloved babes,

I LOVE YA'LL VERI MUCHIEE !

you know who you are.

p/s ; Joey, you look so damn cute :D

p/s2 ; Cheer training tomorrow.

spirits up !

GO VIVIAN ;D

p/s3 ; BIBIKU ILYSDM ♥

Upside Down

2010-01-14T21:44:00.002+08:00

My world has ups and downs,

so is my playboy earring..

haha,

Ningku NHF

2010-01-11T21:20:00.003+08:00

Happy 17th birthday dude !

all the best in SPM this year.

remember A+ di genggaman tangan kau. lol

enjoy your life and stay lz ? haha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

NG HOONG FONG.

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Fucking dishonoured. i hate C life.

what am I after all ? just nothing.

giving chance to people who I dont think really deserve it ?

not to say I'm jealous or what, just that I think she does not deserves it.

hope that a change will happen.

I'm still kinda down. awwwwww.

FCL !

MIA

2010-01-10T00:05:00.001+08:00

I AM BACK

SOON!

New Year New Phone

2010-01-01T23:11:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year people !

I am finally back after letting my blog die so long

New year new resolution

New year new aims

New year new phone for me ! =)

bought LG Ice Cream pink

just wanted a phone for usage

happy new year people =)

Xmas Eve

2009-12-24T21:35:00.001+08:00

what a sad christmas this year.

RIP Brittany Murphy

2009-12-21T21:04:00.003+08:00

how sad, another star was gone again. RIP pretty ♥

and finally i got my finals result. and yeah it really sucked.

sorry to my parents, i disappointed you guys.

Domokun ♥

2009-12-20T20:44:00.003+08:00

watched Storm Warriors today with bi ♥

rate : 4 /10

i dont think its nice , kinda boring.

Thankiuuuuu bi ♥

i love domo &

i love you too ♥ ♥

Eternity

2009-12-19T23:35:00.005+08:00

it was church's musical program held at pgrm.
the show was nice !

made me cried a little. its touches my heart lol

not clear. noobie camera

babe M ♥

Virginie Laurency ♥

the boyfiee entered a basketball competition today,

he won and gave me his medal.

thankiuuuu bi♥

Thanks bi, happy with you today :)

p/s : decided to close my nose piercing, the boyfiee doesn't favour :)

WHY?

2009-12-16T22:25:00.003+08:00

why cant I have a happy christmas ?
why problems come in the month of December?
why cant I have a chance to relax ?
why everything attacked me ?
why cant I be happy everyday ?
why must people comment about this and that ?
why this why that ?

I want peace.

Happy Birthday Sis

2009-12-15T22:56:00.004+08:00

happy 12th bday mei !

love you lots

all the best in yr form1 next year

APYAC 09'

2009-12-09T21:22:00.005+08:00

♥

Its tomorrow !

Dangg, I'm so excited.

baby is coming along ♥

and its gonna be a tiring day.

6.20am -11.00pm. wooots

ANG SHIER LI ♥ aku rindu padamu ! =(

p/s : Changed my blog song.

dontwanna give people heart attacks ;D

♥ BIG BANG

Learn

2009-12-06T20:54:00.001+08:00

Learn to appreciate what you have in life.

Dont regret, there's no turning back.

Third of December

2009-12-03T21:25:00.006+08:00

Today is a very memorable day for me.

A day full of pain, I'll never forget today.

I've gone through alot of hard times ,

but I am fine =)

A BIG SORRY TO
MISS KAM JIA XIN , i was late for 4 hours !

sorry babe, you knew I was settling something super important

I know you understand me , love ya ;D

Went TS and watched

Rating : 6/ 10

This movie was o-kay, prefered the 1st one ,TWILIGHT

Today me and JX did something we wanted to do for quite a long time

She got her BELLY PIERCING done while I got my ear done.

Took videos, will post it soon

It wasn't that painful as I expected. another manhole LMAO

another satisfiction guranteed :D

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A SPECIAL APOLOGY POST to

Miss Cheah Hwei Ann

my Dear friend,

I'm so sorry for what had happened this past few days

You & I knew what's going on.

To people out there, she's not a bitch !

She's a wonderful girl gifted by God =)

There were some misunderstandings,

and we SETTLED everything today.

I hope after this all of us are together as a family

United as God's beloved child

Love you girl

SORRY FOR THE BIG MESS !

p/s : Biii, although we had hard times together recently,

I still loved you the same, never changed, never decreased.

I hope you take my word seriously,

Because I ♥ YOU :)

Penang Trip

2009-11-30T22:14:00.002+08:00

Will update about it soon :)

Away

2009-11-26T22:52:00.003+08:00

Off to Penang with family tomorrow.

Will be coming back on the 30th, Monday.

See you guys ;D

p/s : Gonna miss my baby ♥

Babe T

2009-11-25T22:20:00.005+08:00

Went out with some chicks and dudes yesterday.

Celebrated Tiffany's post birthday @ BBQ Plaza

Bought her a bling bling watch =D

Pictures are below ;

Why Xin kena censored ?

The star of the day

With BabeT♥

With Andrew

With BabeLiliiiiiiiii ♥

bought some Krispy Kreme to entertain myself

bought babeT two donuts=D

someone so enjoy

headed to Pavilion after that

we Wong Kok-ed and chilled around

I ♥ Pavilion

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Hey babe, I know this is a mega late post but,

Happy 16th Birthday !

LMAO

Happy to have you

and lets gamabteh in our cheerleading career

Love you lots XOXO ♥

-hope that blue sweater make you sparkle on that day

* you know what I mean ;D

Two Four

2009-11-24T23:31:00.006+08:00

Happy ONEmonthsary baby !

Ailebbbbiu
♥
You don’t love a woman because she is beautiful,
but she is beautiful because you love her.

Saisaki

2009-11-21T22:25:00.005+08:00

Another post birthday celebration @ Saisaki

Less pictures are posted because

I WAS TOO LAZY TO TAKE PICS

Nice smile dude

BabiiiiLiliiiiiiiiii ♥

The sweet couple ♥

Group photo

and the birthday girl ♥

btw, nice cake ;D

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Hey babe,

another late post but

Happy sweet 16th birthday !

Wish you all the best with TBC ;D

Love you lots alright.

The girl who share same name with me

haha.

*Hope you like the gift from me & Luen

XOXO ♥

♥

2009-11-12T23:08:00.002+08:00

Two is better than one

♥

Happy Bday Ann ♥

2009-10-25T21:25:00.005+08:00

1024

Yesterday was babe Ann's bday !

went to her grandma's condo to celebrate

@ mt. kiara.

goshh, super big + super cun !

the whole place looks kinda like a hotel

didnt take much picture

. . . . . . . . . . . . . .

hahahahahaha.

the lady

ini babe M. she wore my everything.
hahahahah mine urs urs mine.
=D

Jeremy thought he is superman

Group pic

can you find me ? LOL

stupid conteng-ed my hand

Lastly, happy sweet 16th babe

Cheah Hwei Ann ! ♥

Big girl already, must be guai lui tau !

God bless you

and stay lengluii okiess ?

ILY babe

Thanks for inviting me to yr party

p/s : Starting from tomorrow onwards,

I wont be blogging until the 20th of November.

Having my finals !

Exam starts from

3rd till the 20th !

Stupid long finals that will make me suffer

Will concentrate on studying this whole week !

Stay put of my blog ok =)

Thank God I found you

2009-10-22T22:16:00.003+08:00

Today rained so heavily.

I took the rapid bus home and the rain just poured

like nobody's business.

I was like ,

OMG SHIT how am I gonna walk back ?!?!

I just ran A.S.A.P

then suddenly I wanted to cross the roundabout,

3 thunder striked infront of me.

I was so freaking scared I cried !

A malay woman asked me to come to the shop

to wait for the rain to stop

God I was so scared,

if I continued walking I think I wont be blogging here.

Thanks to God,

my life was save again.

but I could feel the current running against my body

when the thunder strikes.

God I thought I was going to die

I am alive !

p/s : You belong to me afterall ♥

let time get us together :)

Boom boom boom

2009-10-21T22:09:00.004+08:00

♥ G Baby

You're my heart heart heart heart

heartbreaker !

awwwwww ♥

p/s : I love you ♥

Oh Yeah

2009-10-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

Babe M overnight at my place tonight !

ILY mwahs

Have lotsa things to chat,

secrets to talk.

most of all,

she knows my new target !

IWY Mr._

Exerholic

2009-10-17T23:38:00.003+08:00

I love you baby boo ! ♥

You

smell soooo good ;D

Became an EXERHOILC today

walked for 2.5km

swam 20laps

& sauna-ed for an hour plus with 89degrees !

goshhh its hotdogs in the sauna room.

LOL

its been awhile since I've last exercised this much,

gotta keep the stamina up and continue on !

WONT GIVE UP

Megan Fox is mamaduper hawt ♥ ♥ ♥

p/s2 : I wanna watch Jennifer's Body !*drools
&
Cloudy with a chance of Meetballs
siapa nak teman ?

p/s : I think I'm falling for you

Megan Fox is ♥

2009-10-16T23:59:00.006+08:00

She's F hot in a cheerleading suit !
♥

Versace Models

2009-10-15T23:28:00.005+08:00

Gorgeous, hot, sexy, stylish, pretty models ! When I grow up , I wanna . . . . . . . .
:D be like them !

I just hate some retarded people in this community,
who think's I'm a replacement or whatsoever.
I also want to gain more experience in the society
Dont give a shit on me and my members if you only
want to stick with your whole group of bitches.
Seriously you're so freaking annoying eventhough you're abnormal
I hate your attitude ! You're disgusting, horny and blablablabla
Please go and stick with FAME since
its your favourite thing to do.
I dont wanna talk bad about you ,but seriously
I cant stand you anymore.

p/s : I wanna be with you.someone

14 October

2009-10-14T21:36:00.003+08:00

I miss her,

Jovina ♥

I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi

or even smile at me because I know,

even if its just for a second, that I've crossed your mind.

Its the 14th today ! Happy valentines day (:

Rebellion

2009-10-13T21:23:00.004+08:00

* My face is pale, i kept had diarrhoea these few days =(

Went out with my primary schoolmates today

Sha Mae & Erica.

Its been awhile since I last met them

Miss them lots !

They're still like last time, so 38. hahahaha

Had fun time chatting at Wong Kok,

after that went for a movie.

We watched Rebellion

I liked the show

Rating : 8/10

Love those gangsters in action

Especially Shawn Yue♥

♥

Met a new friend today, Caryn.
She's Sha Mae's beloved gf.hahaha

Mae mae

Caryn

Erica

Oh ya !

I wasnt suppose to shop because I was outta cash,

but my hands are too itchy so at last

I grab a pair of flats from Cotton On.

new lovess ♥

Enjoyed my day today with you guys !

Many gossips we said right ?:D

Gosh tomorrow back to school !

I dont wanna LISAN !

p/s : I hate that farking playboii.

ewwwwwwwwww

Beauty Expo

2009-10-11T23:04:00.003+08:00

Went to PWTC for the beauty expo thingy.

bought some things there.

Didnt wanna upload any pics,

just dont have the mood to do so.

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you know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

kelly clarkson-already gone

I'm on the papers

2009-10-10T23:01:00.006+08:00

Yeah that's it !

went I woke up, dad said

" I saw my daughter in the newspaper "

LOL =D

Check out today's paper page 69 Starsports

for more info just read the link here ;

http://thestar.com.my/sports/story.asp?file=/2009/10/10/sports/4877909&sec=sports

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In the evening,

ahyee brought me to KLCC

Isetan was having member days sales but end up bought nothing

and the amount of people decreases alot !

I chose California Pizza Kitchen for dinner

because Chili's was packed and we have to wait for an hour !

check out my dimple !
its way up my cheek.
I'm unique !

the aunt

and the niece

Meditterannean salad ♥

My Fettucini w chicken blablabla. YUMMMMM ♥

& The Works pizza. YUMMMM♥

p/s: Wish ? Its all that I can do.

Hope that you'll have good relationships with your new her.

p/s2 : I hate X3 but I ♥:D

I'm Sad

2009-10-10T01:18:00.002+08:00

Dont know why,

I saw it,

and I felt so sad.

cheer up Vivian please.

Dont cry,

be strong !

PLEASE.

KL Dragons

2009-10-09T23:30:00.010+08:00

Slept at 5am last night,
did something fun with my babe ;D
Got a call from Tiff asking to perform cheer for
KL Dragons @ Times Square hotel.
woke up at 7am and got ready at babe's house,
then mom send me to
LRT --> TS
gosh I'm lack of sleep !
Waited for the people and went up for practice.
we practiced for half and hour and thats it,
1st on stage are us !
Gosh, I didnt know it was some sorta conference or whatsoever
Many VIPs were there
no outsiders were allowed.

We gotta stand at the door and SMILED for about 15-20minutes,
we were getting tired of smiling. Hahaha
then when its time for us to perform,
goshhhhhhh, i dontwanna mention =X
but overall
BOLEHLAH,
then after everything ended,
took plenty of pictures
there were some photography sessions that involved us.
gosh those camera lights kept flashing
and i'm gonna be blind
had a lil superstar feeling.
glamorous
awwwwwwwwwww
and they served us starbucks♥ & krispy kreme.♥
some spaghetti♥ too. yummm.

and,
some stupid incident happened today.
on our way back,
a stupid old dirtyminded

malay taxi driver

monkey faced!
disturbed me across the road,
boon was being nice to warn him not to do so,
and that jackass u-turned,
got down from the car and scolded boon
he wanted to fight too,
but boon stayed calm and ignored that usless
that fucking malatlou,
said something faulthy about me,
gosh he should just die on the spot !
luckily they didnt fought,
maybe he doesnt have dicks to do so
thank god nothing serious happened,
just some mouth fighting wasting saliva
anyways,
thanks boon for helping me :)
sorry I dont wanna be rude,
but he just pisses me off !

pictures ;

she disturb me while i'm makeup ing !

Amy hottie
one nigga asked for her number while
we're on the escalator.
your hair makes you look nigga thou !

girls
and they gave us such effing
small size tshirts !
ya allah =.=

They are from other countries
representing Dragons for the upcoming match
gosh they are so freaking tall !

babe T

tiff

me.in the hall

in the toilet

check him out. super tall
i felt in love with player no 5 & 20. = wo ai ni

She's gorgeous♥

The guy beside me is hawtt, but GAY

awwwwww

spot some hot guys !

failed

bought some vodka ♥

ended my day like this.

happy cause some kaching-ching will enter my pocket after the show:D

p/s : WWL is a pig :D

Dear PMR candidates,

2009-10-06T22:50:00.005+08:00

If you're viewing my blog

and taking PMR tomorrow,

all the best alright ?

do your best,

and dont pee in your pants ! :D

GAMBATEH

p/s: Thanks babes, enjoy today's outing.

babe Xin & Joey,
remember,

Madam 6667

mcb whatthefark u wanna eat ?

Tomorrow going to school, to complete my bm lisan.

Omg omg bored till death,

but gonna CHOR DAI DEE the whole day ! :)

Oldtown

2009-10-05T15:28:00.007+08:00

Today , flee away from school

due to boredsome LOL
went yumcha in the morning

school --> mamak --> oldtown --> JJ

i'll do less talking,

pictures below ;)

stupid face

my breakfast

I love my babe Xin ;D & this picture

I love my babe Joey ;D she darn chio

my nose shit is this much

the silly's

when I grow up, I want that car ( not really )

Jusco Maluri

Loser, prayer , peacer

I love us :D chiobu``

last picture ;
innocent face of VivianLJH

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Today is Papa's birthday,

happy birthday Ottosan :)

thanks for everything

from my personal taxi driver to my cash banker ;D

love you lots ♥

mwahss

XOXO

♥

Lovely couple

p/s : Tomorrow outing session again w babes. XOXO !

Sweet Dream ♥

2009-10-04T17:57:00.006+08:00

I slept at 3am last night.

And, I had the happiest dream in my period of lifetime.

I dont want to wake up from it,

I felt that I'm being treasured & appreciated.

I felt the love,

I felt the care.

It really made me happy and I felt happiness

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I mention you when I say my prayers

I wrap you around all of my thoughts

Boy you're my temporary high

I wish that when I wake up you're there

To wrap your arms around me for real

And tell me you'll stay by side

Clouds filled with stars cover the skies

And I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby

What kinda dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare

Either way I don't wanna wake up from you

Tattoo your name across my heart so it will remain

Not even death can make us part

What kind of dream is this?

*part of the lyrics from the song

Sweet Dream -Beyonce

this song is very nice.

thumbs up :)

Happy Mooncake Festival (:

2009-10-03T23:52:00.012+08:00

Saturday is the day for outings !

went out w my babes to Pavilion

dad send me and picked Rainee up from LRT

thanks again Dad,

when I'm 18 I will drive there by myself teeheees ;)

she joined us after she went dating w Mrahemahem

my day contains of these bitches

Rainee Low

Tiffany Loke

Shirley Ang

We watched
Accident
by Louis Koo & Richie Ren
the movie was pretty boring
it needs your knowledge to think of the meaning
of the story line
but some people do enjoy it

Rating : 5/10

After the movie,
went to look for food !
we were all freaking hungry
especially me because I skipped breakfast
ended up in Pizza Hut
after a rough time thinking between Carls Junior or Nandos

We ordered the extra cheesy one
which was on promotion pack.
Super filling after eating,
so we walked around pavi to burn calories
I kinda like the shop Cotton On.
the things are quite affordable and fashion-updated.
will grab some stuffs from there next time :)
Went to Forever21 to have a look at clothes
seriously, I dont find the clothes are as nice as the last time I went.
but I managed to buy a dress

that matches w belts

nice body figures huh ?

BFF ♥

after spending an hour plus in there,
went all the other shops
and Tiff & Shirley went home after that.
Rainee & I continue shopping
and stopped by @ MOF

hers + mine.
superb ♥ yummy

good job,
this piece of art is so nice

redemeed this perfume from parkson
MOSCHINO light clouds
i love the smell, smells like clouds xD

went to Daiso @ japanese shop

bought this for maggi mee !

went home by lrt @ 10pm++
I was suppose to come home early today for dinner
because mom cooked malay cuisine
but I failed sorry mom!

Her Lontong was good ! ♥

p/s : Enjoyed hanging out w babes :)

Happy Mooncake Festival everyone (:

October Babies

2009-10-03T00:06:00.004+08:00

Happy 16th Birthday
Alyna Yong Pui San @ AHoney !
Hope you'll have a blissful year ahead eventhough
its gonna be end of the year ;DD
God bless you
Stay pretty always ok ?
Love you loads
XOXO
♥

Dad's birthday is coming up - MONDAY 05 October.
Gonna get him something tomorrow !
Cause I'm going out w my babes again.
Weeeeeeees, cant wait to shop !
Oh gosh, money will fly again.

p/s: Tomorrow is Mooncake Festival,
so make sure you fill your tummy with
lotsa mooncakes
&
observe the beautiful moon tomorrow night.
=)

사랑해요 대양 보다는 더 깊은

Study !

2009-10-01T21:40:00.000+08:00

Baskin Robbins !

what's your flavour ?

Have a craving to eat this yummy dessert

after not having it for a long time.

Who wants to date me for baskins ? I'll treat ! :)

Gosh ! This morning, I've no idea

why I showed my parents my Ujian2 results.

Wasn't that bad either,

just 2 FAILS and a few As,

mom was quite happy with my achievement,

but dad seems dissapointed.

At night when he came home,

he persuaded me to study

while I was online-ing.

I seriously gotta study for my finals,

but I just dont know how to start?

its October !

time passed very fast,

3/4 of the year has gone.

p/s : Some people cant be judged just only by the outside,

because you'll never know the inside of theirs clearly.

Seriously I thought you were fine,

but you are just another biatch in my list.

Earthquake

2009-09-30T22:19:00.000+08:00

Didnt attend school today

had diarrhoea again,

gosh my ass will grow flower someday.

had the longest yoga session today

from 6.30 till 9.00 pm

and i quited belly dance,

awwwww :(

gonna miss shaking my ass ;D

an old picture. memories at cheryl's house during her birthday celebration
found it at her facebook !

an earthquake occured at samoan island @ america
and now at indonesia with a 7.9 magnitude.
I'm afraid tsunami will come, once again.
So you people out there,
make sure you appreciate everything that's around you now.
appreciate your loved once, be with them always
we might not know what will happen tomorrow.

God bless Samoan Island, Sumatera & Malaysia

Awww Big Bang is love ♥ but the car struck me too !

p/s : AHoney's birthday iscoming !

Too bad I cant attend her birthday party. Sorry honey ! ;(

Stupid tuition.Rawrrr

I'm L.O.C.I

2009-09-29T20:48:00.002+08:00

Fyi, L.O.C.I means

Lack Of Chinese Intelligence.

Yeah, Imma banana !

I dont know how to read , write , and speak mandarin properly !

Whenever I talk, people would laugh at me, friends too.

I feel so ashamed being a chinese,

how terrible horrible vegetable.

God can somebody help me ?

I must improve somehow :)

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Ya allah,

♥ Choi Jong Hun just made me nose bleed.

Gosh, I'm so in love with him.

Recently, been crazy over korean guys ♥

Love does not have a reason !

XOXO,love G Dragon :D

My babe M most guan sam me. thanks ILY ♥

Wake Me Up When September Ends

2009-09-27T20:26:00.000+08:00

Its been a year, i liked you.

Time really passed so fast huh ?

You're the reason my first page of diary is written.

Yeah, I failed to get you,

Even if I've tried so hard

I feel so ashame and embarrased,

I keep wondering why is that girl so lucky

I know she's the type you liked.

Failure is the thing that keeps me moving on

to know and trust that there are better things

outside in this big world.

As the saying says,

dont kill a forest just for one tree.

I know I'm wasting my time for this,

Trying hard not to think about it.

I should focus on studies,

my priorities should come first.

But I seriously want to thank you,

for teaching me many things that I have not encounter.

Being more matured , and not to shed a tear so easily !

Thanks to all my friends for your support,

I know many of you dislike this
So cheer up girl !

Nothing can bring you down,

if you are strong enough to go through it.

Last but not least,

I hope that you can be happy with the one you love

Because, I'm happy when you're happy too :)

Just remember dont give up so easily in life,

and I'll be here to help & support you to the end.
Thanks for giving me a chance to love you.

Appreciate it much.

Life goes on.

Dear God, the only thing I've asked of you

is to hold him when I'm not around,

when I'm much too far away.

p/s ; Wake me up when September ends

"KongKang" To The Rescue

2009-09-26T22:50:00.000+08:00

Stayed at home the whole day !

Gosh I was so freaking bored the whole day,

just stayed at home and watched tvb series shows.

Something happened in the night.

While my maid was hanging clothes,

she called me and say she saw some kinda monkey climbing

at my neighbour's place.

I went and see and called my parents out too.

We observed and it was a

SLOW MORIS @ KONGKANG

it's just so freaking adorable

clearer look of it

several minutes later, called my neighbours out to check it out.

then,i asked mom to phone the jabatan hutan peliharaan to come and catch it.

they arrived 45minutes later* wtf we waited so long

they on the siren as thou a house was on fire LOL

everyone was so 3 8 even cars stopped by to see.
malaysia memang =.=

dont play play ah,
dont see its so small size,
it bites ! a fei lou's hand was hurt by its poison LOL

finally caught it,

say goodbye to the cutiepie T_T

they say if they caught us keeping this,

we'll be fined rm50000

or jailed for 3years.

how pathetic for a small animal =.=

but because it's an endangered species,

so gotta follow the rules.

spended time from 9.30~ 10.30 for this "operation" LOL

what a good deed indeed :)

p/s: dear God, please take care of him.

Bio-Oil

2009-09-24T23:21:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I went out again.

I can tell you that
I AM BROKE SO BROKE !

Gosh, so-not going out this saturday ! LOL

Went to MyVillage @ Pandan Indah

and met up with my friends.

Thanks babe M for fetching me.

We've not seen each other for 2months

plus they are working at there.

After that went down to Pavilion to watch Final Destination IV.

The worst part is,

one of the supervisors asked their workers to CHECK us whether

are we underage to buy 18pl ++ movie.

So ended up we did not get to watch.

Stupid woman ! #$%^$%^&*$%^&

I will never forget your HIDIOUS FACE

Instead,

went Red Box Plus for karaoke session since we had nothing to do.

their VIP, freaking nice & BIG weyh !

Too bad cant take pictures of it.

Pictures ;

my day consisted of

babeM , myself

Zhi Wei

& her friend Ah Sun / Soon / Tsun ? @_@

1 2 3

Wei & I

Miko dah high

My stupid expression

& the funny guy

Reflection

My face had gone chubby WTF

After singing,

we went back to sgwang.

And I ACCIDENTLY TOOK their mic and put it in my bag !

actually it wasnt me, i dont know who

When I was walking halfway then only I noticed =.=
I know I am kind & generous so I went to return back

AHHAHAHAH.

Went for dinner at Food & Tea

Nice lah their beef kuey tiow & the milk with red bean + barley

Me likey =)

Was hunting around for a diary book , and finally I bought one :)

Plus I bought Bio-Oil, for my stupid scars !

took lrt and went home by cab around 9plus

dad wasnt back yet and mom looked at me

mum: Yo ! come back ad ?

me: Yea =.= cant you see me ?

mum: I almost cant recognise you,everyday go out till so late

me: =.=. i go bath lah

p/s ; Goddamnit, I'm tired of facing it.

p/s2: AHoneyy, I'll try to stop alright ? Loves xoxo

Alyna Honeyy ♥♥

2009-09-23T22:14:00.000+08:00

God blessed me.

I found back my honeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Alyna Hun ! weeeeeeeeeees.

I'm so happy that she remembers me ! ;DD

Love you lots okay ?

This month purple right ? awwwwwwwwwwwwww

keep in touch babe :)

♥ ILY ILY ILY ♥

Bingo : " Dont kacau me watch tv, I know I'm photogenic."

Tomorrow hanging out again, with my babe M again. weees ;)

Movie Marathon

2009-09-22T22:57:00.000+08:00

Recently, I spend my holidays movie marathon-ing.

As for today, I went out with my cg to Midvalley, again.

Paul came back from JB so we went out with him.

had our lunch at little penang cafe,

the food there was not bad.

then we watched G-Force @ signature cinema.

I didnt knew it was a twin seated cinema,

so next time I must bring my loved one there =)

rating : 6/10. quite an adorable movie

love those guinea pigs dancing to the boom boom pow music:)

Ann & I

after the movie,

we went to BRJ for mamak session

ordered limau ais only because didnt felt like eating

after I consumed green tea frappucino @ starbucks

made me felt full until now.

paul is in the middle =)

after that, headed to paul's house

for some chit-chatting session

and went home at 10plus.
and for today,

I went shopping alone and got myself
a pink tank top @ MNG

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Saturday , I went out with my babes to Midvalley again

thanks dad for fetching us there ;)

aki's camera.

went to Sushi Zanmai for brunch

ordered my favourite

sashimi salad. thumbs up for this

after eating, we went for movies.

watched two shows for the day,

rating : 8/10

funny but also quite scary

rating : 8/10

awww, this movie made me cry

I could bearly hear people sobbing lol

it was quite touching overall

pictures ;

babe M , babe Aki, and Me

Was otp with missJiaxin. were discussing some things =)

seriously my bag could fit my dog in.

where got ghost ?

I'm afraid, what happens if tsunami really strikes again ?

conclusion, love to movie marathon =)

anyone wanna join me just tell me alright ?

p/s : I need your love.

Thanks

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I got a whitepao frm my maid.

TQ kak !

Selamat Hari Raya to all muslims out there :)

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breaking news

avril lavigne broke up with hubby !

awwwwwwwww ;(

she'll find a better one.